Pathetic.

You might ask, "How are you since the 1st day of this year?"

Allow me to answer your question as briefly as I can.

I cannot forget how my year started. That day, I was so pissed off with someone to the point that I had to cry it all out. Then I thought, "What a great way to start the year." There and then I knew that this is not going to be my year.

My first month of 2010 was all about me struggling on ways to reconcile with my sister. I had many attempts to get back to her but unfortunately, I was ignored (and I still am, by the way). Until it came to a point that I stopped, took pity on my self, and said "I've done my part. This is where I stand, and this is where it has to end." So there, I finally gave up. And she must be really very happy that I did.

I'm fed up with all the drama so let's move on talking about my job. It will be my 6th month in the company on the 11th of Feb. And I am simply amazed how time passes by so fast. Well, I think I'm doing just fine. Recently, I've been working late. I even left at 10 o'clock last Friday night. I like it that I'm busy, though. It keeps me away from all the UNnecessary thoughts that could ever cross my mind. I'm still keeping up with my job. So far, so good.

And finally, I would also like to share this to you. I hate the month of Feb. Okay. I am bitter. It's just that since birth, I haven't really felt how special this month is. Now that I have finished school, I am supposed to be eligible to be in a relationship. But guess what? I am still single. It's kinda frustrating to be single at this age (I am 21, by the way. Turning 22 this year.) I really envy those who have someone special. Nakaka-inggit! My friends keep telling me lots of words of wisdom just to comfort me which I appreciate, by the way. But mehn, honestly? I am already desperate. I don't need sympathy, I need love. HAHAHA! Oooppss! Sorry, do I sound pathetic now? Sometimes I just end up asking God, "When can I have my love story, Father?" *sighs*

Anyway, I have to end here. This update was supposed to be brief, and I'm sorry it's not. HAHA!

Fine. You're favorite line.

Want me to prove to you a lot could happen in just 10 days? Read on.

I have already moved out yesterday. It was once just a plan I never thought I’d really do. I am the type of person who does not easily give up but when I’m told to, I do. "Someone has to say it."

If you read below, I said ten days ago that I was pissed off with the situation and not the person. But after I talked to the person and tried to fix things up, and even tried to ask help for me not to give up, I am now angry with both the situation and unfortunately, with the person. And you know what? I just realized that when it’s pride you’re fighting with, it’ll knock you down. And it’s a slap on your face when pride reigns over love. Some people claim it’s all they got. The question is, has it done something good to you and to the people around you? If yes, were you really happy? Or just pretending to be happy? You wonder what’s wrong. Have you ever thought that maybe it’s because of your pride everything has gone wrong?

Ugh

Well good luck to you and your pride. May it give you the happiness you think your unworthy family cannot give you. May you live happily ever after.

Unhappy

This afternoon, two of us from the company were interviewed by representatives from Personal Excellence about how it is living and working in Singapore. One of the questions was, "What motivated you to come here in Singapore?"

Then I just remembered WHO motivated me, and not WHAT. And unfortunately that person who was my main reason for coming here, is so far away from me right now. So near, yet so far. I'm afraid I might be giving up on this person. This person is just too strong to handle. It has been eight days and during these days I've been trying to find the perfect time to break the ice. But every time I try to, I keep seeing reasons not to. Not yet.

My heart is enraged. Not because of this person, but because of what I have to deal with right now. My family is my weakness. I may be coward at times, but in my mind and in my heart I would always try to defend whoever hurts anyone in my family. But the hardest part is when 'whoever' is also part of the family, the closest to me.

I really don't know what to do. I am so caught in the middle of a situation I never wanted to happen. I wonder why I had to deal with my mother's feelings all by myself. For a week I have been shedding tears every time I think of what's happening with my family right now. And it sucks giving my parents some false hope. It'll only be me who's coming home, Ma.

It's funny how someone you hate could make you turn against your family and blaming them for something they didn't even want to happen.

Well, a decision has been made. I just hope it won't make the situation worse. But to be honest? It's going to get worse. I'm just so scared.

We'll see what happens in the next few days or months.. If I continue to be unhappy here, I will move out. I know it's risky but I know it'll be easier that way. And I know so well that it'll be my loss. I'd rather live alone than live with someone who's mad at me and my family, someone who thinks that going home is not worth it. I wish she realizes how this is hurting me, how this is gonna affect my parents, and how I have to deal with my parents' feelings, something she claimed she does not care about. My friends say she's just mad. I know she's a smart person and I've always believed in her. But I don't know why this time I feel like she's making a huge mistake.

Pardon me for my scattered thoughts, I'm just so lost right now and unhappy.

The Update I Owe You

Remember I told you I'd be leaving for Singapore last May 6? Yeah. I left Philippines and after 60 days, I went back. If you only knew how frustrated I was looking for a job and then ended up going back home. But you know what I love about life? Surprises. While I was back home, I got an email. I got hired! So two weeks later, I flew right back to Singapore. It felt like heaven having been hired. God has finally blessed me with a job here in Singapore. I actually work as a Systems Analyst at JobsCentral Pte Ltd. I recently just finished my probation last week. And so, here I am... A regular employee after three months.

I'm starting to get the taste of real life. Work gets stressful sometimes, and ugh... BUDGET! And sometimes, I really miss the people back home. But what keeps me going is the fact that God gives me blessings which I am and will be forever thankful for. I'm so thankful that my first job is here in Singapore. They say I'm lucky. I say I'm blessed. *winks*

This is just a short update and I hope these pictures will fill you in. ^_^

our room

oh yes. i am in singapore. haha

me and my sister during her birthday celebration last Sept 18 @ Forbidden City

my IT teammates

my Jobscentral family

Out of Track

Missed me? *winks*

Well, yeah. I've been gone for too long. I am the title of this entry. Life has been very busy lately and I just couldn't find time to update my blog. I have also been thinking 'bout lots of things. Gawd! And I mean A LOT!

I might have the guts to share my recent thoughts here... some other time. So just keep posted. Haha! :p

That's all for now. I just want you to know I still exist... and by the way, I miss you too.

ID Pictures in Business Attire

Me and Beverly

We had our picture taken at the studio this afternoon. As a requirement for graduating students, we have to wear a business attire for the ID picture. Since we were too tired to wear or bring with us our own business attire, we borrowed from the studio instead. And this is how it turned out. Both of us look almost the same! *laughs* We had a blast laughing at our pictures the moment we saw them upon claiming. Crazy! *laughs harder*

Hey! We're not sisters, okay? We're not twins! She's a very good friend. We're crazily happy together. *laughs*

New Year, New Hair

Hello, 2009!

So this is my first post for this year. As of the moment, I only have one thing to share with you. And that is all about having a new look. Me and my sister had our hairstyle changed last January 3. She got her formerly straight hair curled, and I got my formerly curly hair straightened. Cool, isn't it? We swapped hairstyles on the same day but in different places (she's in Singapore, I'm here in the Philippines). *laughs* Anyway, here are pictures for you to see our new hair for the new year.

above: ME ... below: my sister, Wendy

What do you think? *winks*

New Year's Resolution

What really is it?

According to Wikipedia, a New Year's Resolution is a commitment that an individual makes to a project or the reforming of a habit, often a lifestyle change that is generally interpreted as advantageous. The name comes from the fact that these commitments normally go into effect on New Year's Day and remain until fulfilled or abandoned.

Remain until fulfilled or abandoned? Abandoned? Okay... So some resolutions are meant to be abandoned, right? I tried not to think about resolutions for 2009 since I was thinking time would come that they're no longer followed. Not until I found the definition above. So here is a list of my resolutions for the new year.

1. Go to mass every Sunday at the Xavier University Chapel.
2. Try to avoid over-eating. I'm getting fat! *worries*
3. Start thinking positive all the time. Don't worry too much.
4. Save money!
5. Don't be insecure. I'll try.
6. Avoid cramming. Be a responsible student!
7. Clean your room regularly.
8. Don't speak bad words!
9. Avoid backbiting. Stop being mean!
10. Be kind. Be nice.

Those are my ten new year's resolutions. I really hope I can commit to each one of them. So help me, God.

How about you, what are your new year's resolutions?

2008: The Year That Was

Today is the second to the last day of year 2008. Before I welcome year 2009, allow me to share to you the highlights of my year 2008.

STUDIES. I really had a hard time dealing with my studies this year. Although I made it to the Dean's List last March, I still think I'm not doing good at all. Last semester, I got very low grades which is why I wasn't able to make it to the Dean's List anymore. I was even scared I wouldn't be able to maintain my scholarship but fortunately I still have it! Thank God! Well currently I have so many requirements to accomplish: projects, assignments. God, help me! By the way, I'm taking up BS Computer Science at Xavier University and I'll be graduating this March, hopefully. So just imagine how busy I am.

SOCIAL LIFE. Well I've had so much fun this year even though I'm not in good terms with someone right now and even though I had a very self-degrading experience early this semester. I have attended several gatherings and shared more bonding moments with my friends especially my blockmates. I also had great fun and adventure in different places. Last summer, I was in Manila for my OJT and the IT department of the company I was working for, had an outing at Zambales. We visited two nice islands there! I also went to Enchanted Kingdom with some of my high school classmates. During the semestral break, I explored Camiguin Island with four of my blockmates. I really had a blast!

LOVE LIFE. It was good during the first month but he was gone all of a sudden. During summer, I found out something that really hurt my pride. Then I found a guy I thought of as my ideal guy. But he had a girlfriend. Too bad. Well, I have many crushes back in school. I think I haven't fallen in love with any of them, which is actually great fun. And then... just this month, I had a conversation with someone and there were revelations which only the two of us know. I guess it was just nothing. But we'll see what's in store for the two of us next year. (as if! hahaha)

FAMILY LIFE. I think my family is doing good. I mean, problems never stop coming right but then I'm glad we're still hanging on. But this year, I really had my full attention given to my sister who's going through a lot lately. I really can't forget what happened last summer when we were still in Manila. It wasn't easy. It was too hard to take. I guess it was the worst thing I ever encountered in my life. But what I like about that experience is that it brought me and my sister to a deeper relationship. We remained strong by always being there for each other. I hope God will grant her the end of her sufferings.

UNCATEGORIZED. I don't know which aspect this falls but I'm gonna share it anyway. Late this year I have a friend who invited me to be part of his band, making me one of the four vocalists. I'm really very excited about this one 'coz I have always dreamt of singing with a band. I hope we will be able to push through with the plans. I wanna make it happen! *fingers crossed*

Wow! I just realized how memorable my year 2008 is. It has been a year full of ups and downs. Well... let's just see what's gonna happen to my life in 2009. May it bring me and all of us more joy than sadness. Have a blessed new year, everyone! *winks*

Leaving a Message

To BEVS: Thank you so much for being my dearest and closest friend all these college years. It has been fun being your partner in almost all things. You have been my neutralizer. Haha! You have no idea how grateful I am to have you. Let's keep this friendship forever, okay?

To ARRIANE: It has been fun and great having you around. You have always been there to make me strong and realize some philosophical things. Haha! :p It's always an advantage to have a more mature and more experienced friend like you. Experienced? Aw! Wahehe! Thanks for being my wisdom! Char!

To SHANG: You remind me how useful I am by always making me feel like you need me despite the many friends you have. We may not always hang out together but we're always there whenever we need each other the most. Thanks for being true to me, Shang. And please, I may not be strong enough for you, but please please be strong, okay? Never give up! And as always, I'm here for you.

To BLONDZ: Honestly, you have been so distant these past few years. You are so pre-occupied with a lot of things. And hell yeah, we've been through A LOT. But still, I thank you for the times you shared with me just to cope up with the times we've lost. Thanks for keeping what we have alive. May you be happy wherever and with whomever you are.

To THESA: I know a lot has been bothering you and at times I can feel that you don't know how to handle or express them. But with me, you don't have to worry. I may not totally understand you but one thing's for sure, I'm here to listen to you and just let you blab things out. It's one way to release stress right? And Thes, hang out with us sometimes okay?

To KEN: I know you have a delicate heart inside you and thanks for letting us in. It has always been my pleasure to be told about your aches and happiness. Just keep on loving and having fun, okay? And yeah, I'm always here to understand.

To CAYE: We may not be that close to share secrets or problems but it always felt nice whenever we have time to talk about anything despite your busy schedule. I like the way you're living your life, Caye. Full of happiness, full of love, without insecurities. Perfect!

To GLAIZEE: I know I have already told you how I appreciate you so much. I'm just so thankful that a person like you still exists. You're one of a kind! And it feels good to hang out with you, very happy-go-lucky. And also, we're both crybabies! Haha! It's nice to have a friend who is as sensitive as I am, or more. Stay the same, Glaiz!

To OZZIE: Of all the guys in our block, I am most comfortable around you. I just don't have any problem with you, Oz. It's like I have nothing to worry when you're there. Char! But yeah, seriously, you're such a nice friend. And the thing I like about you is that you have always been an optimist. Nice attitude! And by the way, thanks for being in our team.

To DOM: Truth or dare? Haha :p It was fun having that conversation with you. Thank you so much for you know, for being nice and all. And I'm so sorry for making you feel something which isn't true at all. I didn't mean to. Thanks for the times :) .. for treating me the way a lady should be treated.

To JEP: I know that it's him that you love. Bwahahaha! Joke! :p Seriously though, thanks for being my academics consultant (what? haha), and for the company especially those times you had no choice but to wait 'til I get my ride first. Haha! I'm sorry. But yeah, thanks!

To DAN: Remember that time we rushed to the hospital? We were on our way towards becoming the next heroes! LOL. Well, that was a moment for both of us. Char! It was an unforgettable experience and I'm glad I shared it with you. Another char! Hehe.. Well, thank you so much for the rare times.

To JETHRO: There may be times when we just don't get along together and I get so annoyed with you. But still, we're friends (as far as I know). Thank you for sharing with us your heartaches and I'm glad you're happier now (are you?). And by the way, I don't wanna miss saying this to you. You're such a talented guy! And I like you and your bro's tandem. You have a future! Haha :p

To JAMES: You are so damn in love! Gawd! Well, James.. Be careful, okay? Hehe :) Ugh. I admit it really came to a point that I hated you for being so loud, noisy, annoying, etc. But that was before. Now, I'm glad that your in love. At least you're trying to behave now. Haha! I'm so happy for you, James! Stay in love!:)

To JETT: I don't know why I'm including you here. Haha! Peace :p Well, I don't know what's up with you lately. All I know is that you are famous now. You know, being an XU basketball star player. Nux. And you have a lot of fans already. Bwahaha! I know you are enjoying every bit of what you have right now. Just keep your feet on the ground. :p

To EDWARD: Have you read my card, already? Hehe. Uhmm.. Dward, I'm sorry but it feels good whenever I annoy you. Haha! Evil me. It's coz I know you'll never get angry with me. Haha! Right? Awww.. Sweet :) Thanks for being like that.. and thanks for those two big hugs u gave me during the party. Haha! It proved you're not angry with me. Thanks!

To LLENO: Hey, romantic guy! Char! Well yes you are, llen (aside from being a pervert at times. haha! peace!). It has been my pleasure reading your compositions online. They're nice and meaningful. Just stay sweet okay? And... Blondie likes you. And we like you for her. Hahhahhaha! :p

Whew! I really took time to do this. It's coz I love you, guys... and I might not have time to say these things to you anymore. And since it's Christmas, take it as my gift. Hehe.. It's all I can afford. I'm broke. But hey, "no greater gift is there than love" as the song Give Love on Christmas Day says. And yeah, I love you! MERRY CHRISTMAS! mwahugz!:)

Lonely Christmas

Okay. I thought my Christmas is gonna be fun or merry. I miss everyone. I only have my parents to celebrate with. My sister and two brothers won't be home for Christmas. Sad, right? But I think my situation is better. At least I have my parents. I just can't imagine being in the shoes of my siblings. They're out there, celebrating with their friends. But still, that kinda feels lonely right? Oh my. I can't imagine celebrating Christmas without my family. Soon, I'll be working. I might be all by myself next Christmas. Ugh. But I wanna see to it that I'll be home every Christmas. I'll do what it takes.

Anyway, this one's funny. While I was Googling images for "lonely christmas" I found this image. *laughs* Pathetic? Yeah yeah. This picture is very sad yet I can't help but laugh at it. She's very lonely and sad. I would love to relate myself to her but then, what's that mistletoe for? Wait, she's loveless! Like me? Definitely! As a teenager young lady, it's normal that I long to have a special someone on Christmas. But due to family rules and regulations, I can't have one. I still have to graduate. And yes!!! I'll be graduating on March! I mean, assumingly, I won't be lonely next Christmas! *giggles*

Wait, have you noticed the shift? From family to lovelife. Crap! I'm sorry. I got out of track. Well either way, the truth remains: my Christmas is lonely. But I'm not really sad. It's normal! Good thing I have other things to do online: blog, play games, check emails, chat at YM, watch movies, make projects and assignments (I hate my teachers for these!), etcetera etcetera... Merry Christmas to me!!!

OMG! wait!! While I was about to end this post, my Tita came and handed me P500! Gawd!!!! I love her!! Hahahaha! I am soooooo happy! Weeeeee!!!!!! Haha! Wait, where was I? Oh. Yeah. Ciao! :p

All I Want For Christmas

a baby??? No! Not yet, of course! *laughs*

It's exactly 30 days before Christmas and honestly, I really don't know what my heart's deepest desire is for Christmas. I haven't really been enjoying my Christmas these past few years. Happy, in a way, yes... But there's always something missing. And I don't know what that is. Maybe I just miss celebrating Christmas with my whole family. It's been a long time since all the members of our family celebrated Christmas together. Awww... I miss us. Geez... stop!:)

But hey! I have here a list of things that I want this Christmas! *winks*

• new magic wallet
  
• plain Havaianas slim slippers
• external hard disk
• 8gig flash disk
• fluffy flip flops
• pajamas
• extra cellphone
• "Whatever" shirt
• big huggable stuffed toy!!!
• Nike sling bag
• kinda big shoulder bag (for my books)
• chocolates

Hahaha! Wow! Not so many, huh? *grins* Oh well, I accept gifts from anyone. Haha! And you, do you want to make me happy? Send me gifts! *lol* Joke! (but jokes are half-meant) *evilsmile*

Merry Christmas, everyone!:)

Top Three Ideal Dates

I'm all out of love. So what I do is daydream. Pathetic, huh? More like... "hopeless romantic". *laughs*

So here are my top ideal dates. Gosh! So kilig! *giggles*

TOP 1: At The Beach, During The Sunset

Ever since high school, this has been my ultimate ideal date! It's cheap and simple. You only have to go the nearest beach (it has to be clean!), watch the sunset, and spend the whole evening together. I can imagine walking through the shore while holding hands, or sitting together behind a bonfire. Sweet! *winks* I kinda love the beach especially at night. I just love to feel the wind from the sea, and the sound of the waves. (emo!) *giggles to the nth level* Perfectly romantic!

TOP 2: Harana

Sometimes, I still feel like doing something traditional. "Harana" (or serenade) is the traditional form of courtship in the Philippines. I still find this sweet. I can easily fall for a guy who can sing me songs while playing his guitar, especially when he has a good voice. Gosh! Just knocks me off my feet! Many times I have dreamt of being serenaded by a cute guy. *giggles* He doesn't really have to have a very good voice. It would also be fine if he doesn't know how to play the guitar. As long as he sings for me, i'll already be very impressed. Aaack! Oh I love daydreaming! Haha! =)

TOP 3: At an Adventure Park, say... Enchanted Kingdom

(Sorry to the owners of this pic. I'm not good at photo editing so it kinda looks funny. Haha!)

Last summer, my friends and I went to Enchanted Kingdom. I had so much fun! While I was there, I was also thinking that lovers can also have it as their dating place. *grins* They will surely enjoy each other's company while playing around, riding rollercoasters, bump cars, etc. I love adventure. I love to play despite my age. So this is really ideal for me. But, it doesn't have to be at Enchanted Kingdom. I've also been to HK Ocean Park and HK Disneyland.It would be a lot better if the date is gonna take place in either of these adventure parks. But it'll be too expensive! Enchanted Kingdom is preferable, money-wise. *winks*

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So there.. You have just read my top three ideal dates. What are yours? *smiles*

Poems of a Scarred Heart

WARNING: Some words are not suitable to mature people. Hahaha! Mushy thoughts follow. Pardon me. *blushes*

STAY
September 15 '08

A guy comes...
He pleases me...
I start to like him...
He goes away.

But you, why are you still here?
Are you not supposed to be out of my life already?

But... will you stay a little longer?
Please?

WHY HIM?
September 15 '08

Just when I finally found someone who stays,
something comes unexpectedly.
Why does it have to be him?
Yes, he's still there...
But will he be only staying for a while?

Good Lord, please keep him strong.
No one sees me the way he does.
Please don't take him away... not now, not forever.

NO LONGER HOLDING ON
August 4 '07

I deserve someone better
... a lot better

I have already let you go...
So please just go

... come back no more.

HAPPY YET STUPID
Undated

Thinking about our memories together makes me happy.
I'm happy...

but I feel stupid.

PLEASE
Undated

Please don't let it hide for I'm sick and tired of assuming.

NOTHING... JUST FACE IT!
April 4 '07

At first, it seemed he feels the same way
But then reality bites so hard that what seems is not what it is...

To me, he's something.
To him, I'm nothing.

Reality is better even if it bites
It's better to be real than to believes there's something
When actually, there's NOTHING.

VICE, SO NEAR YET SO FAR
Undated

Where are you?
I miss your presence...
your presence that gives me unexplainable happiness,
your presence that makes me hopeless.

NO, THANKS.
Undated

Thanks, but I'm sorry...
We can never be
and
we'll never be.

THIS ONE'S FOR YOU, LIAR!
Undated

I used to see you as someone too good to be true
You used to be the one who makes me feel special
We used to be so close to share almost everything

I used to...
You used to...
We used to...

But now, everything is not what

I
You
We

used to be.

NEVER!
Undated

Hate me, just hate me
'Coz I can never love you back.

UNTITLED
November 13 '06

It hurts so much to be the only one trusted by a friend who's in love with thy you used to love knowing he still holds a place in your heart. You know their secrets, you know their happy moments. Every story eats you slowly. You want to escape but the only way escaping from it is to give up a special friendship, something you can't afford to lose.

Retouched. Revived. Relived.

And so I have decided to renew my blog ... for a big change. Big in the sense that aside from changing its template, I am now determined to commit to this blog. With change comes responsibility. From now on, I'll be taking that responsibility. I will be posting more (especially now that we have already subscribed to a faster internet connection). I also have a plan of putting up another exclusive blog about food recipes my mother got from her culinary workshop. I'll give you the link soon. Watch out for it! *winks*

To those who have still been visiting my blog, thank you so much! I know this blog is almost useless but still, you cared to visit and read some of my posts. Thanks, really.

Gosh! I spent almost one whole day just to change my blog. I've encountered a bunch of errors and guess what, my links are all gone! I AM SO SORRY!!! I'll try to populate my list as soon as possible. Oh, help me!

Oh wee! Good luck to me! Stick around! =)

On-the-Job Training at KFC Philippines

Who would expect I'd still be back to the blog line after three months? See? There can be miracles! Haha! I left my blog since I had my On-the-Job Training last summer and when I came back from Manila, I had a hard time connecting to the internet at home. But now, I'm back. Yes! And the first thing I would like to share is about my OJT experience.

Business Systems Department
KFC Philippines
RAMCAR Center
80-81 Roces Avenue, Diliman, Quezon City

RAMCAR Center is a big company of companies. It owns KFC, Mister Donut, and Motolite. I worked under KFC. I documented their "Back Office Online" system which has a lot of modules. The most challenging part was analyzing their database. Whew! I really have applied what I've learned in school. Well aside from my work, I have enjoyed my stay in the company because of my officemates. They are so fun to be with. They really made me feel that I belong to the team. Superb! On the other side, I had a hard time living in Manila. I tell you... IT'S NOT EASY! I had financial, social, emotional, physical problems. Name it! It was so damn hard living there and yet somehow, I've enjoyed because of my sister, my high school friends, and my officemates-slash-friends. I just can't find words to perfectly describe my OJT experience. It was a mix of ups and downs. My OJT in Manila has given me the glimpse of the real world - the world after graduation. Indeed it's true what they say: It's better to study than to work.

Here are some pictures of my officemates during my OJT at RAMCAR. I am so grateful for being part of their company and especially for being part of the Business Systems Department for six weeks. I surely won't forget them and the memories they shared with me.

more pictures

To Sir Arvin, Sir Mike, Ma'am Monica, Cheryl, Ena, Salve, Levy, Ridvan, Eric, Marlowe, Mon, Simon, Boss Bam, Boss Gamie, Mark... Len and Tass... I wish I had taken all of you in one picture. But anyway, I will never forget you all. THANK YOU VERY MUCH! I MISS YOU!

Magazine Covers

Did you ever have that fantasy of being a model and see yourself in a cover of a magazine? I bet. Me, too! *grins*

I just love this magazine. Cheenee, a close friend of mine, made this for me three years ago. She's an artist, yah know... She's got all the creative power. *proud* When I posted this in my friendster right after she gave me this, many were fooled. Haha! Could be a compliment, right? Haha! Oh well.. Thanks to Cheenee!


Wow... How's that? Haha! Bride? *lol* Don't be fooled! I was just a maid of honor. Gotcha! *winks* But this looks just fine, right? I didn't design this, of course! I just got into this website where you can upload a picture and then choose a design for your magazine cover. It's just as easy as that! You can choose from many fake magazine covers out there! Just for fun!

So.. Do you want to see yourself in a magazine cover? Visit MAGMYPIC.com right now and feed your fantasy! ^_^

Be a potential model! *grins*

personalized cellphone wallpapers

This one's very very girly... I like it though. ^_^

This one's simpler. So "me".

Wouldn't it be nice if you make your own wallpaper for your cellphone ? ^_^

I made these using Zedge's Personalizer and Name Tool. Wanna try them? Just visit Zedge and sign up! You can actually upload and download ringtones, picture messages, wallpapers, and others for your cellphones for free!

Enjoy!!!

after one month...

whew! t'was a month ago since my last post.. i've been busy with the projects and final exams. but now i'm finally through with 'em! Thank God!!!

Nowadays, I'm actually quite busy with my applications for an OJT. I'm still looking for a company in Manila to work at. I've tried Accenture, HP, IBM, Lawson Software... These are big international IT companies and it just makes me nervous! Will I be accepted by any one of these companies? I hope so.. or else, I'd end up working at Smart, which is okay but... *grins*

Oh well... I'd just have to wait. I am so excited to go to Manila and be with my sister and of course, go to malls. I just love it there! And.. I'm kinda excited for my OJT but I'm nervous. Let's just see where God wants me to be...

Maybe I'll update you about my OJT: who gets to accept me and who won't *ouch*

Oh my.. my blog is just sooooo boring. Punish me!

Chimay the Puppy

Just last night, a friend of mine gave me a cute female "askal" puppy. I named her "Chimay"... why? I dunno exactly. I just find the name cute. Oh well... I promised my friend that i'll really take care of the puppy. He even reminded me that the pup loves to drink lots of water. haha! okay... so.. this day, i played with her. She's very playful! She's just so energetic to run around the lawn. And oh, she loves to bite! hahaha! Cute one! We really had a good time playing around... But then.. everything between us has to end. *pouts*

When my father found out that the pup's a female, he told me to give it away. Sad. Oh well, he has a point. Taking care of a female dog is hard coz when their breeding season comes, all the male dogs from the neighborhood will surely come and disturb us. So, i decided to give her to another friend of mine who's willing to take care of her instead. She'll be getting Chimay tomorrow morning. And I won't be here by the time she leaves home. huhuhu.. so sad. =( really sad =(

Oh well.. i really have to let go of Chimay. I know she'll be in good hands. *sighs*

Goodbye, Chimay! =(