You Matter

I never thought you matter to me until I saw you today
You were so stunning, you left me with nothing to say
What are you doing, making me fall in love with you?

I never thought you matter to me until I had a bad dream
The pain felt so real and I thank God I woke up from it
What was it trying to say?

I never thought you matter to me until I saw you today with someone else
It was like my heart felt a sting
What happened to the things you once told me?

I never thought you still matter to me
Well, guess what?
Unfortunately, yes. You still do.


created: January 17, 2009 at 9:35 PM

Poems of a Scarred Heart

WARNING: Some words are not suitable to mature people. Hahaha! Mushy thoughts follow. Pardon me. *blushes*

STAY
September 15 '08

A guy comes...
He pleases me...
I start to like him...
He goes away.

But you, why are you still here?
Are you not supposed to be out of my life already?

But... will you stay a little longer?
Please?

WHY HIM?
September 15 '08

Just when I finally found someone who stays,
something comes unexpectedly.
Why does it have to be him?
Yes, he's still there...
But will he be only staying for a while?

Good Lord, please keep him strong.
No one sees me the way he does.
Please don't take him away... not now, not forever.

NO LONGER HOLDING ON
August 4 '07

I deserve someone better
... a lot better

I have already let you go...
So please just go

... come back no more.

HAPPY YET STUPID
Undated

Thinking about our memories together makes me happy.
I'm happy...

but I feel stupid.

PLEASE
Undated

Please don't let it hide for I'm sick and tired of assuming.

NOTHING... JUST FACE IT!
April 4 '07

At first, it seemed he feels the same way
But then reality bites so hard that what seems is not what it is...

To me, he's something.
To him, I'm nothing.

Reality is better even if it bites
It's better to be real than to believes there's something
When actually, there's NOTHING.

VICE, SO NEAR YET SO FAR
Undated

Where are you?
I miss your presence...
your presence that gives me unexplainable happiness,
your presence that makes me hopeless.

NO, THANKS.
Undated

Thanks, but I'm sorry...
We can never be
and
we'll never be.

THIS ONE'S FOR YOU, LIAR!
Undated

I used to see you as someone too good to be true
You used to be the one who makes me feel special
We used to be so close to share almost everything

I used to...
You used to...
We used to...

But now, everything is not what

I
You
We

used to be.

NEVER!
Undated

Hate me, just hate me
'Coz I can never love you back.

UNTITLED
November 13 '06

It hurts so much to be the only one trusted by a friend who's in love with thy you used to love knowing he still holds a place in your heart. You know their secrets, you know their happy moments. Every story eats you slowly. You want to escape but the only way escaping from it is to give up a special friendship, something you can't afford to lose.

Be Responsible, Youth!

I went to the office of the Campus Ministries and took one bookmark whose content got me interested. Read on, and take time to realize...

I AM A RESPONSIBLE GIRL

My kisses are worth more than a part or a movie.
My body is the temple of God - not a plaything.
The first "NO" may be difficult - after that it's easy.
Virginity is still a virtue; lust is still a capital sin.
The way I dress, act and speak may be a temptation to my boyfriend.
I will observe modesty for his and my own protection.
My parents have done so much for me.
I wish always to be a credit to them.
My boyfriend will be a husband and father someday.
He must be a her in the eyes of his wife and children.
I will do nothing to prevent that on my dates with him.
I want to be a wife and a mother.
I will reserve my purity and affection for my husband and children.
If through my weakness, I should get pregnant,
I will not take "the easy way out" by killing my unborn child.

I AM A RESPONSIBLE BOY

The parents of my girlfriend place their trust in me.
I will not violate it.
I will respect my girlfriend as I expect other men to respect my sister.
I will respect womanhood because my mother is a woman;
I will ask my girlfriend to do nothing that I would be ashamed of if my mother found out.
My girlfriend has given me the honor and pleasure of her company.
It is wrong for me to expect more in payment for this date.
My girlfriend will be a wife and a mother someday.
She must be an example for her children and the pride of her husband.
I will help her to be as pure and decent as I want any wife to be.
Manhood means strength of character as well as body.
Lack of self-control is a sign of weakness.
I want my girlfriend to know I am manly.
God is everywhere, sees everything, knows everything.
Darkness may hide me from people, but it cannot hide me from God.
If through my lack of self-control, I should get a girl pregnant,
I will not put pressure on her to kill our unborn child.