Poems of a Scarred Heart

WARNING: Some words are not suitable to mature people. Hahaha! Mushy thoughts follow. Pardon me. *blushes*

STAY
September 15 '08

A guy comes...
He pleases me...
I start to like him...
He goes away.

But you, why are you still here?
Are you not supposed to be out of my life already?

But... will you stay a little longer?
Please?

WHY HIM?
September 15 '08

Just when I finally found someone who stays,
something comes unexpectedly.
Why does it have to be him?
Yes, he's still there...
But will he be only staying for a while?

Good Lord, please keep him strong.
No one sees me the way he does.
Please don't take him away... not now, not forever.

NO LONGER HOLDING ON
August 4 '07

I deserve someone better
... a lot better

I have already let you go...
So please just go

... come back no more.

HAPPY YET STUPID
Undated

Thinking about our memories together makes me happy.
I'm happy...

but I feel stupid.

PLEASE
Undated

Please don't let it hide for I'm sick and tired of assuming.

NOTHING... JUST FACE IT!
April 4 '07

At first, it seemed he feels the same way
But then reality bites so hard that what seems is not what it is...

To me, he's something.
To him, I'm nothing.

Reality is better even if it bites
It's better to be real than to believes there's something
When actually, there's NOTHING.

VICE, SO NEAR YET SO FAR
Undated

Where are you?
I miss your presence...
your presence that gives me unexplainable happiness,
your presence that makes me hopeless.

NO, THANKS.
Undated

Thanks, but I'm sorry...
We can never be
and
we'll never be.

THIS ONE'S FOR YOU, LIAR!
Undated

I used to see you as someone too good to be true
You used to be the one who makes me feel special
We used to be so close to share almost everything

I used to...
You used to...
We used to...

But now, everything is not what

I
You
We

used to be.

NEVER!
Undated

Hate me, just hate me
'Coz I can never love you back.

UNTITLED
November 13 '06

It hurts so much to be the only one trusted by a friend who's in love with thy you used to love knowing he still holds a place in your heart. You know their secrets, you know their happy moments. Every story eats you slowly. You want to escape but the only way escaping from it is to give up a special friendship, something you can't afford to lose.